再见了我的2009

Erhmm....要怎么开始呢 Erhmm.. How to start my post...
ERhmmm.....erhmmm.......

好吧 ! 就写我曾经在2009 经过的风风雨雨吧 ! Ok ! Write about my experience in the year 2009 !

(我用华语写,因为我觉得我英文还没到家...haha. I write in Chinese because I know my English is not that good enough...haha)

我说这一年会是个新的开始，新的体验和新的突破当那时才刚刚进入2009.是的，我各人觉得那时的我才觉醒。奇怪？为什么我才醒。因为那时我觉得我过得很麻木。所以才有下定决心要从新开始，做回我自己。E.....好像讲我在2008年过得很惨!错的，并非如此。哈哈...不过说真的有一段时间我过得很麻木，不知对和错，也不晓得自己做过了什么，现在想起来还觉得自己有点愚昧。往事不谈了，何必在自己的伤口撒盐呢？哈哈....好像讲到有一段很浪漫的爱情这样?== 我各人是不会浪漫的啦，浪漫的爱有点假。哈哈....什么歪理== ... 但是我觉得浪漫是一种气氛，难到爱是讲究气氛的吗？哈哈不管啦...重点不在这!haha

2009年，给了我不少回忆，不只回忆而已，还给了我很多很多.....当中有起，有落，譬如高潮和低潮。但是这回的低潮可不像往年那样的消极了。虽然有时很难过，但是难过时总提醒自己要"醒".有时真的要低一下，为什么？不是kek emo la...aduh.... 就算你是 King of Emo or Queen of emo 你还是得要活啊！竟然活了为什么不干脆活得开心一点。真是现代的青少年。我曾经也emo过不少，但是真的很浪费时间，倒不如想一些快乐的事让自己兴奋一下，给自己希望。发生一些事你静一下，那还可以。但是有时事情发生了还难笑一下的，但是别丢掉你的笑容。因为圣经说喜乐的心 ，乃是良药。忧伤的灵 ，使骨枯干。箴17:22
话说回来，有时低一下还是需要的，但这是积极的低落。低落一下是为了让自己反省一下，有时还得要认真。因为反省一下你自己做过了什么，有时做错了你也不懂，也可以说自我检讨。另一方面是让自己静一下，因为有时玩过头也不太好，生活有时也该认真。
还有很多很多的解释，但，另一个的是，静一下也是让自己有时间好祷告。这你也该懂的。

Eh...怎么说了远了...哈哈....其实要说我的经验的确很长，写到现在只是写到自己领悟到什么。其实我要说的是不管你有多么的不好的往年，让那过去的都成为过去，放下心中那个绊脚石，或是一个刀，要勇敢得把它拔起来，让那个伤有机会复原。这样你眼前的雾就会散掉，自己醒了过来，做回你原来的自己，可能这会是个试探而已，看你自己要胜过还是不要。不只快快乐乐的做自己，还要把你这份从黑暗走出来的生命，努力和勇敢转给你身边的人，让他们也能够胜过这个考验，也能够成为人家的祝福。当你看到人家因此快乐，你就会知道真正的快乐在你心中......
收拾那泪水的书包，预备好自己的心和心灵来踏入新的一年吧！愿你有个平安的一年，也开始你快乐的旅程。愿上帝大大赐福与你....^^ May you have a full of peace and happy year. May God bless you abundantly.... ^^Jesus loves you

When I'm calm

Yesterday just over not longer ago...
But I'm still here ...
Meanwhile the night still young , but the day already old.
Moonlight slightly shine in the dark , like the mood slightly down and darker and darker.
The rain drops in the silent , like the tears drop from the sky.
Thunders roar in the cloud , like the spoke in roar.
Melody softly transmit from Audio device , like the words transmit to me.
Song lyric display front of me , like the speech between Him and me.

All the sudden , come suddenly
The words still delighting my heart, just like ask me "Don't give up"
I just feel want to calm a while , not emotion , just want to think back what am i did wrong against Him.
Not blaming myself .... just checking myself what i had neglect ...
Feel indifferent?
No , I tell myself not !
but the lowest point of Spirit in fire is indifferent...
I'm almost there.... However still a slightly hope there....
the small flame burn in tiny...
Hopefully still a small flame in my heart....
What cause me lost the fire?
Nothing cause me , just me did't put some "coal" to let it burn it up...
And i dun wanna let the promise be empty at the end of....
I still want to keep the promise , let me carry on....
My heart pain when He is worry....
Its the time sleep in His shoulder... and rest in peace....

My blog almost dead!! >_> But still alive =P

Sorry my dearest friends ,

I was on my busy days...
The days goes too fast that i can't follow up...
Cause some of my stuff left behind and accumulated.
Not even that my spirit and body was tired...
Because of my body exhausted , many things goes wrong and make lots of mistake .
However I still stay strong not matter how tired was it...
Just sound like pretend but i can tell you the truth...
In other hands , I still keep going and going....
It may change me a lot or been transformed completely ( I hope so) ^^
All of this just the initial , I dunno how it will lead me....
But , just one word , delighting my sorrowful heart, "Stay strong"...
How powerful of this word gives me? a hope? because of Him who tell me in whisper when i was down..
It just a normal say just as who ever talk to me..
But, Its something difference among the speech..
Because just what He say, full of secure and not a lie...
And I'm sure that and believe He words are the best medicine of healing...
And I'm been healed everyday , every second...
And a successful Transformation just begun in my life... a long life process...
I had gains many good things , it will be part of my pathway to my future....
What thing change me a lot? even cause transformation? haha...lets check my next new post...hehe.... keep in touch ya^^
May God bless you all...for sure ^^