Erhmm....要怎么开始呢 Erhmm.. How to start my post...
ERhmmm.....erhmmm.......
好吧 ! 就写我曾经在2009 经过的风风雨雨吧 ! Ok ! Write about my experience in the year 2009 !
(我用华语写,因为我觉得我英文还没到家...haha. I write in Chinese because I know my English is not that good enough...haha)
我说这一年会是个新的开始,新的体验和新的突破当那时才刚刚进入2009.是的,我各人觉得那时的我才觉醒。奇怪?为什么我才醒。因为那时我觉得我过得很麻木。所以才有下定决心要从新开始,做回我自己。E.....好像讲我在2008年过得很惨!错的,并非如此。哈哈...不过说真的有一段时间我过得很麻木,不知对和错,也不晓得自己做过了什么,现在想起来还觉得自己有点愚昧。往事不谈了,何必在自己的伤口撒盐呢?哈哈....好像讲到有一段很浪漫的爱情这样?== 我各人是不会浪漫的啦,浪漫的爱有点假。哈哈....什么歪理== ... 但是我觉得浪漫是一种气氛,难到爱是讲究气氛的吗?哈哈不管啦...重点不在这!haha
2009年,给了我不少回忆,不只回忆而已,还给了我很多很多.....当中有起,有落,譬如高潮和低潮。但是这回的低潮可不像往年那样的消极了。虽然有时很难过,但是难过时总提醒自己要"醒".有时真的要低一下,为什么?不是kek emo la...aduh.... 就算你是 King of Emo or Queen of emo 你还是得要活啊!竟然活了为什么不干脆活得开心一点。真是现代的青少年。我曾经也emo过不少,但是真的很浪费时间,倒不如想一些快乐的事让自己兴奋一下,给自己希望。发生一些事你静一下,那还可以。但是有时事情发生了还难笑一下的,但是别丢掉你的笑容。因为圣经说喜乐的心 ,乃是良药。忧伤的灵 ,使骨枯干。箴17:22
话说回来,有时低一下还是需要的,但这是积极的低落。低落一下是为了让自己反省一下,有时还得要认真。因为反省一下你自己做过了什么,有时做错了你也不懂,也可以说自我检讨。另一方面是让自己静一下,因为有时玩过头也不太好,生活有时也该认真。
还有很多很多的解释,但,另一个的是,静一下也是让自己有时间好祷告。这你也该懂的。
Eh...怎么说了远了...哈哈....其实要说我的经验的确很长,写到现在只是写到自己领悟到什么。其实我要说的是不管你有多么的不好的往年,让那过去的都成为过去,放下心中那个绊脚石,或是一个刀,要勇敢得把它拔起来,让那个伤有机会复原。这样你眼前的雾就会散掉,自己醒了过来,做回你原来的自己,可能这会是个试探而已,看你自己要胜过还是不要。不只快快乐乐的做自己,还要把你这份从黑暗走出来的生命,努力和勇敢转给你身边的人,让他们也能够胜过这个考验,也能够成为人家的祝福。当你看到人家因此快乐,你就会知道真正的快乐在你心中......
收拾那泪水的书包,预备好自己的心和心灵来踏入新的一年吧!愿你有个平安的一年,也开始你快乐的旅程。愿上帝大大赐福与你....^^ May you have a full of peace and happy year. May God bless you abundantly.... ^^Jesus loves you
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
再见了我的2009
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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
When I'm calm
Yesterday just over not longer ago...
But I'm still here ...
Meanwhile the night still young , but the day already old.
Moonlight slightly shine in the dark , like the mood slightly down and darker and darker.
The rain drops in the silent , like the tears drop from the sky.
Thunders roar in the cloud , like the spoke in roar.
Melody softly transmit from Audio device , like the words transmit to me.
Song lyric display front of me , like the speech between Him and me.
All the sudden , come suddenly
The words still delighting my heart, just like ask me "Don't give up"
I just feel want to calm a while , not emotion , just want to think back what am i did wrong against Him.
Not blaming myself .... just checking myself what i had neglect ...
Feel indifferent?
No , I tell myself not !
but the lowest point of Spirit in fire is indifferent...
I'm almost there.... However still a slightly hope there....
the small flame burn in tiny...
Hopefully still a small flame in my heart....
What cause me lost the fire?
Nothing cause me , just me did't put some "coal" to let it burn it up...
And i dun wanna let the promise be empty at the end of....
I still want to keep the promise , let me carry on....
My heart pain when He is worry....
Its the time sleep in His shoulder... and rest in peace....
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Friday, December 18, 2009
My blog almost dead!! >_> But still alive =P
Sorry my dearest friends ,
I was on my busy days...
The days goes too fast that i can't follow up...
Cause some of my stuff left behind and accumulated.
Not even that my spirit and body was tired...
Because of my body exhausted , many things goes wrong and make lots of mistake .
However I still stay strong not matter how tired was it...
Just sound like pretend but i can tell you the truth...
In other hands , I still keep going and going....
It may change me a lot or been transformed completely ( I hope so) ^^
All of this just the initial , I dunno how it will lead me....
But , just one word , delighting my sorrowful heart, "Stay strong"...
How powerful of this word gives me? a hope? because of Him who tell me in whisper when i was down..
It just a normal say just as who ever talk to me..
But, Its something difference among the speech..
Because just what He say, full of secure and not a lie...
And I'm sure that and believe He words are the best medicine of healing...
And I'm been healed everyday , every second...
And a successful Transformation just begun in my life... a long life process...
I had gains many good things , it will be part of my pathway to my future....
What thing change me a lot? even cause transformation? haha...lets check my next new post...hehe.... keep in touch ya^^
May God bless you all...for sure ^^
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Almost Done.....
wa..... now already Wednesday ....and still got 4 subject exam to go....huhu...
just want to say " finally" !!! haha....
Hope this time can get a good result... better than before...hehe.... xP
ok...let you ppl see something....so cute one...xD
haha....cute le.....
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Tuesday, November 3, 2009
I'm bored , Need take a rest then continue with my study..^^
Hu......... I want take a breath.......hu.........
After done my BM paper 2 and PM paper , my thought is " Finally the writing session already passed, but still got BM paper 1 "Haizzz....
T.T want to cry....
but nvm , It should be okay ...^^
Now just take a rest and watch some video ...haha.....
After that have to study add-math loh.... @.@
let you see some video and some pictures , take a rest..^^
Wow, So delicious...hehe....
Oops....blur...>.< Gathered with friends..^^
Peace.......^^v
haha...just post some photo to share with you.....
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
StudyWeek.... ^^
The Final examination is forthcoming......
So nervous ....hehe..... All of you must catch up and start to do revision from now... hehe
I have to study hard this time to get a good result..... do some breakthrough ! yay ! =3
between , i have to force myself into study mode....its hard sometime
Obviously , I"m lazy too.... But no matter how , i have to do revision !!!
My heart want to study but my body is lazy to move...
haizzz...... must overcome this problem , In fact i'm fighting with this over and over again...
I hate this feeling.....sadT.T
Pray hard then
So , everybody , all the best in your exam....do more revision and be prepared ^^ .
God bless you all and bless your studies....^^
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Monday, October 12, 2009
2009 Oct Marriage Vow Renewal....
Everyone , Don't you feel expectation ?
haha..... i dun think so....hehe....anyway just enjoy it =3
Last Saturday I just went to Borneo Convention Centre Kuching for the Marriage Vow Renewal which organized by our church. In case , this marriage vow renewal is for the couple remarried again by using our christian formal. Its meaningful , like the couple make engagement , appointment between our Lord and the couple. Trust again and walk together through any weaknesses. When i saw this , its very touch my heart , look at them , some of them are very old already , but they still want to make the promise , appointment to his or her partner. They each other still hold the hands tightly even they are old. Not the problem of the age , because love never end . The love is live inside their heart , want to protect him or her. Maybe have argument before , maybe had hurt each other before...but , right now , they handle their marriage to God . Unforgettable Night , very important to each other because that is the moment to make the promise between the couple. Maybe last time they already married , make the promise and appointment already , but thats difference ..... The love which lead them to protect each other , care each other , trust each other , obey each other and love each other..... bring happy to each other....
look at them , even old but still love each other ...because Love never fails..
plenty of brides
plenty of grooms
wonderful =) .... handle the marriage again...love the partner with new heart.
*Those photo can get from facebook ^^ not me capture de la...haha
Its is memorable and meaningful ..... God and couple....the love will last forever....marriage and family live in happiness....
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Sunday, October 11, 2009
My Daddy Birthday 9/10
Hi everyone.... Finally i can write my blog liao...haha.....last few days very busy..... haizz.....
then nvm.......
Last Friday was my daddy's birthday....4 of us went out and have a dinner with my daddy at "Shuan Tian Hai Xian Luo" BDC there... Dunno why my daddy always choose there to have our dinner....
Actually we want to prepare a present to my daddy de..... but seen like cannot finish it before that day.... Our present is a photo of 4 of us.....but could not find out the photo cus we did't take it before...haha.....>.<
Let you see some photo , here you go ~>
Secret Recipe ~~
The cheese cake...( i forget the name)
den den den den ! look simple but delicious....hehe....
After we ate then we went back home to let my daddy cut the cake....hehe....
here got some photos ~~>
Daddy , 2nd sis and me....=)
Daddy , Sister and me :) When cut the cake no "smooth" ah..... maybe the cake got overnight i think so..... "bo pian" , that day we went to bought the cake just only left one....@.@ but the taste still ok la..... sweet sweet one..... haha....
So here i wishes my daddy have a wonderful birthday and may his dream come true...^^
Don't you know ? That day my daddy just gave me a laptop...lolx....suddenly gave me ba....how touch..... =) but Thanks God i got a free laptop.... =) so must take good care of it ....hehe
Thanks god , that day i saw my daddy look well and fine.... May peace come to him =)
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Friday, October 9, 2009
Sleepy ZZzz
Goh mei na sai...... haha.....just now i want to write my blog de....but now feel very sleepy.... and now also very late liao.... so i postpone to 2moro...xD
Cus today is my daddy's birthday , and many many things .....
anyway... Today I got a wonderful and meaningful day....hehe......
All of you stay happy and healthy ya....
May god bless you.... have a nice day =D
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Wednesday, October 7, 2009
I'm back ^^
Yo.....sorry everyone..... my blog is full of spider web......hehe...... Me so long did't update my blog cause of busy + lazy ...always day-dreaming..... so thats why i did't update my blog even touch it...huhu...... =X
Okay.... Hi everyone I'm back...hehe Today no school so i sleep till very late.... about 11.30am like that...haha....pig ah... then I steam the bread and clean the rubbish bin....Haizzz....the rubbish bin is so dirty....ZZz
after that have a breakfast "Yeah...my favourite bread *Man Tou*..haha... Then online a while...facebooking.....=X
Yeah !!!! I'm going to buy my formal wear this afternoon......
Go to Spring ~ ~ ~ ~
I'm so expecting..... my vest !!!
hehe....
I bought the vest and one cloth..... erhmmm......got abit expensive la....haha....not abit.....is alot....= =
Here, have a look ~>
SUB~ ~ ~ The shop where i bought my clothes
Wow..... SUB....I very like their clothes....nice...but expensive~,~
DEN DEN DEN den !!!! My vest + white top......
Here is the white top....Nice ho.... I very like it....But sigh it is L size....aduh....... but me still can wear it.....
Here is the vest..... M size...but still big xia....haha.....anyway...Its cool !
Hehe.....I'll wear like this for attending the annual dinner... Expecting~ ~
You know how much is it?
Total is RM222.40 X.X
erhmm...quite cheap la....but still pain for me..... er.....
So thats why i go for work....just for this vest ~~~huhu....cus i'm so like it.....
Anyway.... I'll save my money........Dun simply spend it......
Thanks God i can buy my things....remember bless our friends =)
Hehe..... sigh ah.... My body got abit small..... if not then i wear my cloth is so nice looking.....haizzz......so i must grow more "big" haha.....My body and height....haizzz.....
I got do exercise , but dunno it is correct or not....hmmm....
Okay ...thats all..... Hope all of you have a nice day.....Happy always ya ^^
God bless you
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Monday, August 31, 2009
When?
Today is 31/8 ah...haha.....but me go Bako National Park for relaxation with church friends .=) hehe......
Felt so good , can obtain fresh air oxygen...haha...... may get heathly then...=D
we climbed the mountain and walk along the path to reach the high place and have a sight of picturesque view...
Thats SO BEAutiful !!!! The sky , the sea , the sand and the rock all is so beautiful... And I was 1st time have a look at the high place there....then see the wonderful and beautiful sight.... the God's creation.... =)
Also, I felt happy can hang out with my church friends....=) the child of God..... hehe....
then thats around 3.00+ pm gua...then we back to kuching city...
then go "cheng ji" eat lunch ....so delicious la the ma la mee....haha..... but sigh ...cus me get ill ah....eat the food without taste.... T.T wanna cry...haha
then...afterthat...go back home lu.....
very very feel thankful and happy because can go out with them....and again I make many new friends...haha...thanks God...=)
Afterthat , my sis and I go out eat dinner with daddy....
cause daddy want to see my sister...and have a gathering a while...
My sis this wednesday go back to Kl lu.....time goes so fast.... so must "zhen xi" our family ah....
If not then just like a mist.......
So miss my brother , and 2nd sister them.....dunno hows them...
i heard my bro got many assignment to do , i heard my sister is lack of income......
May god bless them .....
just felt some worries about their life......
Dunno when they can go church with me?
Dunno when they can come and share the God's love?
Dunno when their soul can be saved?
Dunno when they can live in peaceful and happiness life....?
Dunno when ? Dunno when? we can go to heaven together at the end of the earth.....
Maybe they still dunno....maybe not yet....maybe have to wait.....
But ...... God tell me must confident....must have faith...from my prayer....then One day all these will happend.....amen!!!
Thats some word deep in my heart....
"I wish my family can come and before our Lord.... we pray together... we serve together...we praise together...... "
Thats my desire...and I think thats most happiness thing for the christians....
Even my friends.....I also wait for the day come......wait the dream come true.......
their souls are important to me.....
may God listen my prayer......
thats all...2moro have to go school liao...
byebye......God bless you =)
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Sunday, August 23, 2009
We like a mist
wow..... feel like I'm very active to my blog now..haha... =)
anyway.... just hope all of you like it...^^
Today is Sunday, so i went to church for Sunday service.....
Today's message very touch my heart...... the title is "A mist"....
Our life just as a mist.....like a smoke..... very soon will disappear from the earth.
At the moment , What are we doing..?
Scolding someone ?
Blame to someone?
Hurting someone?
Hate to someone?
Yesh..many time we are doing these ....but we never think that if that people who you scolded or hurted will suddenly disappear in your life, then
What can we do? Still got chance ask him or her for forgiveness ?
How you want to tell him or her a word sorry?
Not only this, If that person you did't really love so much like parents or friends, then, when you want to love your parents and friends? 2moro? next week ? next month? next year? even no next .... How you know He/She got many next day? Don't you sure today He/She will not happen anything?? It will suddenly disappear in your life,after that, how you called him/her 's name he/she still can't come back anymore.... how you cry...how you sad.....how you disappoint... he/she also can't come back anymore.....If that's a miracle, then , that's God want you love him/her more....
When i heard the song, called" a smooth smoke"
I started to cry.....
why i cry?
Cause that's suddenly a sight come into my mind....
That sight is when i 1st time to hug my daddy...
I'm thinking my family....my Mum , my sis, my bro....
That's my sight.....
Maybe God want to tell me dun forget to love your family.....
dun forget to love your friends.....
So , i want to love all the people who surround me....
I want to giving out my love to them...
although my family was broken....
But....He still my daddy...
She still my mum...
They still are my sister and brother....
I want to thanks God cause He let me born at this family....
maybe that's a broken family.....But i know that's God's will.....
He want me to know this feeling.... then I can only talk to them who also experience this ...
Encourage them.....Support them...Tell them that's a love come from the heaven....
That's a love come from Him....
The only love which can comfort our sadness heart....heal our weakness heart....
That's my experience.....my testimony....
So , start to love your family....
although every day look like usual...normal...nothing....
But you still can give out your love.....somehow that's a little love....but God know at least you got try.....
Our life is short like mist.... when the run raise, when the wind blow..the mist will disappear...
the time goes so fast....like now we are right now.....
So , love your family before it disappear in your life....like mist...like smoke.....
Life is entirely in God's hand
Do not be all self-important and self-reliant.
Life is short like a mist
Be humble , obedient and reliant on God's will
Let this mist be carried by the wind of the Spirit
Only then will you know the Lord's will
Must be greatly filled by the Holy Spirit
Only then can you carry out God's Mission.
That's today's message by our pastor =)
thanks for viewing ah.... me now go pack my luggage liao...haha...2moro going melaka...
c ya.... muaks.... xD
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Friday, August 21, 2009
You..... my reason to live
just dunno hows my result .... @_@ kiakia.... =X
then , holiday liao......
Next Monday i'll go Melaka with Church members for joining the gathering....( I forget what gathering liao...haha...but i know got praise and worship =D )
So pray for us ya... let the blood of lamb cover all of us and protect us all the journey.
And also we can see the miracle.
Wow..... I'm felt very happy tonight...haha....
Just now the atmosphere in our church was so high...haha...not high la...is exciting....
Finally He get number 1 lo , then his sister get number 2....wa seh..... So good...haha
and dun forget , all of this is belong to our God... Is glorify His name....
Second, I felt happy too because
My friends they accompany me come to my church for watching the singing competition.
So glad to see them.... =)
hope next time we can come together again and again.... to close our God....
and also , Hope that got help them for those who really need God's love...
Just a expection in my heart...deep in my heart...God knows....
really really ....really really...very pleasure... =)
May God bless you.... you know I'm talking to you..haha...not la..... to everyone de... =)
Friends are part of my life,
they souls are important to me,
they live in darkness its my fault,
they live in peace its my wish,
their happiness Is delighting my life.
their smile Is my potion,
their share the God's love Is my reason to live.
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Thursday, August 20, 2009
The reappear Rainbow which is colourfull , meaningfull and happiness to your life
You may fails the love from the earth , but God's love never fails......
Dun forget "He" who always look after you , when you cry , He is looking to you....
Pray with your heart .... cry out to the Lord... say that you're my helper......
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death , I will fear no evil ; for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff , they comfort me." Psalms 23 : 4
Come back to him... He want to see you... Cus you're His daughter/Child ....
This may like the heavy rain appear to your life, but after the rain , after this.... the rainbow will appear... Appear to your life...with colourfull , meaningfull and happiness.... =)
Dun forget our Lord.... He loves you so much........He will comfort you.....
and you stil have all of us who around you....
Go friends...we run together , fight together..and till the end we still together...and go together to see our Father in heaven...^^
Dude, come on....I need your helps..... to spread the love of God to those who need our help....
We're not pity...Cus we got our Lord , our family..our friends.... and We are loved by God...
=) cheer up...I'll be your side through the storm.... for no reason but I'm your friend =) and we are Child of God....
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Tuesday, August 4, 2009
The dejection of my heart
Today I like last time go to school.
So nervous , the BI presentation is nearby....
But finally we do the presentation at last ....
Prepare our heart and get ready to present...
Nervous + laughing.... -.-
ok ... nvm then..... but i had said i will dance when playing the MV....
At the contrary , I'm not doing this..lolx....dunno why....
then finally our presentation was done ...yay...
then my classmate take photo there and here..... lolz..... dunno why they get so exiciting...
haha..nvm....they look cute...xD
ok....next , today doesn't have Bio class cus yesterday has been replaced to Add-math lesson.
then we back early lo.....
1st la... i want to say I'm happy ...Cus these thing delight my heart....=)
Cus i can see that they look like child..haha.... so touching sight? haha...whatever la...
then..... the dejection approach all suddenly when i heard the news from my relative's mouth.
Maybe i did't experience this before.... the feeling is so weired... upseting even?!
My 3rd brother-in-law now is at hospital. yea , last time my 1st brother-in-law also get into hospital cause of his disease.
Now , I'm worry about them...... but i choose to pray....
He is not my family or what ....but he is my relative.... is one of my mum's family...
we have to love everyone despite how they hurt you or else
I will pray...... pray for the healing upon to him.....
just as I said... we believe the power of prayer..... So , He will be cure soon i know =)
Thats all..... the dejection will not longer in my heart de la ... haha
just got that bear to pray..... =)
ok...thanks for viewing again.... May god bless you
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Saturday, August 1, 2009
Refresh me
Just now I went to church for prayer meeting. While on the way to church , I'm thinking of a song in my heart and thats some tears in my eyes @.@!!!....dunno why....not want to cry la... just a accident of peace live in my heart.....
Then later , I sit down lo....
Once the prayer meeting started , I started to cry also .... ~.~
"Lord , please refresh my heart that always loving you more. Refresh my mind that always pure. Refresh my Spritual eyes that always looking for you...... refresh my relationship with you that always in fire with you...."
This is what i want to say indeed.......
I cried.... cried....and cried.... why i'm crying....
because i found that i lost my .... the begins of love.... which the love is........Our relationship ...
Maybe I'm not in fire with you at all.............
Maybe I'm facing the problem...
Maybe I'm sad.... upset about my life....
Maybe.............. maybe........... Maybe ......... i have no burden?!!..........
Why say so?
ya...maybe i have no burden , then gradually , I'm cold down.......
after colded down.... i may lost my direction.......sometime will dunno where am i....
So , just now I prayed , i pray for the fire which come from you.... then please burn it again...
Whats the burden I'm looking for?
finally i found the answer..... I strongly mention it......thats a , good, kind and right burdens....
The burdens which i mention are
My family members.....
My friends....
My relatives and cousins....
and Myself............
and the most important is , the people who surffing , sustaining a painful diseaces , lost their mind and direction , lost the love, have a complicated life , and living in poor situation and more..
Thats alot..... alot of people who have to take care of.....
but i may do nothing for them right now..i cant do anything for them right now....
But in case , I still know ....... I can pray for them.....Thats only i can do for them right now....
ya...try set a burden on our heart..... you may say thats nothing.... dun think too much....dun find yourself troublesome.......or something else....
But.... thats also our reason we pray, right? Don't you did't pray for your parents or your friends?
For me.....
If no pray... equal to no peace....
If no peace equal to no happy....
if no happy equal to upset.....
so , no pray = upset......isnt it ?
Pray for them..... We believe that the power of prayer......
You won't lost anything when you pray ,
you won't be harm when you pray....
on the contrary , you may get the blessing..... you may heal.... you may happy... =)
ok...thats all..... you may not know what i'm saying...... but , pray....
okay liao ... thanks for viewing .... May god bless you
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Wow...Finally can update my blog....
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Monday, June 15, 2009
Feel good ^^
Wow..... I climbed the mountain last Saturday ...haha.....
then about 37 members present this activity, left 3 person... =X
Still got many photos at my friend there , these photo i take by using my hp. My hp de camera not good enough de la....
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